Im confused helpp?!!!!!!?

okay so im a catholic, will thats what i think, im 15 hmm my parents are catholic and i dont even know if i believe in god or not or if there is one. im so confused, i go church like once a year, so yh i know that makes me a bad catholic lol, and i go catholic school and have re lessons and i find most of the stuff bullrubbish but i dont know? hmmm =/ helppp! and i feel pushed to believe something i dont believe, like i dont know some part of me says theres a god and another says theres not, so yh im very confused. and i know if i tell my parents i dont believe in god theyll get way pis*sed =/